So, there's a girl. I'm not really sure how it came about. I really like her and no one else. What do you do when you think about someone so much that if they knew, they'd be annoyed. I haven't had this problem since "her". I feel like we hit it off the couple of times that we've seen each other. We talk and laugh a lot. Not too much. All-in-all it seems like a potentially great thing. She makes me nervous. So nervous that I forget that I'm not the guy who gets nervous around girls. It's a paradox. Anywho, so as much as I like this girl, I am trying not to screw it up like I have with some of the other girls in the past. Not calling or bugging her too much, even though I am genuinely interested in everything that she has to say and how her day is going. Not to keep track of her, just to know her. I think of her and wonder if she's thinking of me. It could be a problem.
Anyway, she went out with her ex boyfriend tonight and blew me off because they had to talk. I don't want to control her. I'm just worried about my chances. :( What if he is back to profess his love for her? I don't know the conditions of their break-up. I don't even know how long ago it was. There are just too many variables here and it's making me sick to my stomach like I don't know what to do.
I just had to tell someone.
