Dreams

Do dreams matter? Do they motivate us to do better in life? What separates dreams and goals?

What is the difference between selfishness and aspiration? virtuousness and pettiness? or immorality and ethical?

I have some dreams:

I want to graduate with a 3.5 I want to get accepted into The Columbia Law Program where I will debate intelligently with my classmates. My first year I want to qualify and pass my CPA exam. My second summer I want to get accepted into an internship where I will bear witness to the discussions of big business deals. I want to be debt free by 35. I want to enjoy my life. I want to travel the world limitlessly. I want privacy. I want to play the business game: taking what you want by manipulation and force. Allowing another person no choice but the one you delegate. I want to make money in my sleep. I want to own lots of land and rent it out to others. I want Power. I want a BMW 5 series and a motorcycle. I want to be able to see something on tv and say well that product looks nice, let's buy the majority stock of that company to turn the profit.

I want art to moderately line the walls of my house. I want a home theatre, a room for my instrument collection, a pool table, a gym, and a bar. I want secret passages in my house and I want a round foyer, with two staircases. I want to be fit and gorgeous. Not oh he looks pretty good for his size, no. I want to be, "you could wash clothes on his abs." and "I would give anything if he'd just look at me." I want to be comfortable, not arrogant. 

In another life, I would have liked to be able to come home to a loving wife and 2 daughters. Now, I want to be devoted to my livelihood. I don't want to have to ask ,"how much?" I want it not too matter. 

The Lord says that we are all equal. I don't want to presume that I'm better than anyone else. I just want to live comfortably on this earth while I have the time. 

I wish could be a good person, but with dreams like these there's no room.

How do I differentiate myself from everyone else without condemning myself?

As far as women...I'm not swearing off women. I just have no interest in people who are not interested in me. I'm an aggressive, mature person and that is not the best way to win friends or foster relationships. But before this realization and even after will still persist my idea of a perfect mate:

A lover of Foreign foods, cultures, and languages

Able to blend in in a room

Ambitious

Pretty eyes

Enjoys a casual debate

Organized

French/Spanish

Good hair

good hygiene

Intelligent

Music lover

Comfortable with themselves

Down to earth.