FUUUUUUCCCCCKKKK!!!!!!

Why do I do this to myself? Seriously, I've only loved one person and I thought that if I loved her enough that it would be enough to keep her with me even though I saw her drifting away. Then I thought that if I hated her with all of my soul that I could forget about her and move on but that is just not the case. Am I so desperate for love and affection that I go to whomever will give it? Am I so desperate for her that I will forego other potentials for her? Or is it that I am too cowardly or lazy to pursue someone new and build a new relationship from the ground up.

How do you go from Love to Friends in under 3 minutes? Is there such a thing? More to the question, how do you pretend to just be the friend? You know you don't want to hurt them so you don't tell them everything but at the same time, you want to because you want them to hurt like you do. Take the high road...Make them pay in the end. Everything comes back.