Christmas eve

It occurs to me that today is Christmas Eve. I'm afraid that I do not really have too many fond memories of Christmas or anything like that.
I am sitting here in the living room of our compound while my colleagues are comparing their Christmas tradition from their families. I cannot help but remember that my family and I have no real "Holiday" traditions. I am not 100% sure if we have any family traditions at all. I have never been one for holidays or anything like that. But I do get sad when I think about the holidays. I think that I really like the idea of having my own family and starting our own traditions that persist through the years.

I think that I am just jealous this Christmas.