Thoughts May 25

Here I sit with my music, computer and my thoughts. I can't say that I'm a terribly interesting person, however, I can not seem to find the means to get what I have in my head out onto paper (or in this case, internet). At present, I cannot even remember what I sat down here to write about in the first place.

So let's just start with whatever comes to mind. Real Life is all around me, threatening to consume me like a wave of responsibility. My friends are getting married and having children. Friends that I have spent 4 years with, and some that I have spent less time with. All make me feel like I need to find someone to spend the rest of my life with. But what am I trying to do? I'm running away to China. heh. I'm trying to escape the thralls of servitude to that hydra of responsibility by running off to Asia to teach English to Chinese teachers. What a coward I am.

I'm a flake and my friends know it. Recently I have gotten really into climbing and when I expressed my excitement at my newfound activity, my friends simply said that they were happy for me and that they, "hoped it lasts". Do I flit from thing to thing without any regard. If so, who can I attribute this trait to? Was it passed down through patriarchal lineage, matriarchal, or is it something that I developed over time? If the latter, how, when, where did I come upon the propensity to be such a flake? At any rate, here I am, engrossed with the sport...for now. Who knows what tomorrow will bring.

Who am I? What is it that makes up my personality? I enjoy many things, but I cannot say that I am good at any ONE of them. Does that come from my flakiness? Is it impossible for me to devote the time to master any one thing? I could list things for you. But it is likely that I would forget most of the things that I enjoy simply due to the vastness of the list.

Shit, let's start now...

Things that I enjoy:

Music of all kinds

Playing Guitar, Saxophone, Clarinet

Outdoor Sports: running, mountain biking, rock climbing, swimming, volleyball

Golf

Soccer

Computers

Cooking

Shopping: Polo, Burberry, Armani, D&G,

Reading

Writing for pleasure

Languages

Cultures

Travel

Solitude

Problem-solving

Chess

Yoga

Exercise

Observing people

...

This broad list seems to cover things that I have enjoy. Some things I have been doing for years. Some, I've only engaged in for months and others for less than that. Oh well, this is me. I embrace it. I enjoy all aspects of life and neither could nor would I live it any differently.